ash wednesday

i am not religious at all,

correction, I am not all that catholic.

however I do believe in a Superior Being and all that he represents. I do not like the contemporary messages that some churches send to its followers that is why I follow no religion. I am more spiritual, if anything.

But like I live in a household that noone will eat meat on fridays until easter, the proper thing to do is to respect their customs and follow along. Everyone is giving something for lent. I thought really hard because it has to be something that I truly love or so I've been told.

thinking about my childhood ways......
when i went to Catechism in my childhood i disliked my teacher because she was uber strict and instead of spreading the word of love and tolerance around, she opted to critique every other religion in the world and used derogatory, racist words for those who were not catholic. Not very Christian of her nor lady-like. WEll, during this time she told us to give up something we truly loved. And anyone who knows me, might as well tell you that I LOVE to think outside the box. I love the idea of endless possibilities. I wanted to be original and unique so when it was my turn to state what I was going to give up in the name of God, I said I couldn't give up anything materialistic because it was a sin to love material things. So, I said "Jesus." I am going to give up Jesus, because he is the a spirit and a spirit is a thing. The entire class gasped, the teacher chocked on her reaction. She told me that was impossible and I asked her why? If God sacrificed him to us for our mortal sins then how come my love for him was not greater than a material thing? Was a material thing greater than Him? Or could only God Himself give him up?
I asked so many questions I put her on the spot.

And it wasn't because she was a total Hypocrite that I said this. I really did feel this way about my love for God/Jesus.

She cut the class short so she could take me to the nunnery and then to the priest himself.

No one could change my opinion back then.

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I think that I we should not only use Lent as an excuse to be good for 40 days. It should be all year round. This time, I will give up meat. Not because I am getting morbidly obese, but because last week I was introduced to the Peta Campaigns. People should do as they please but I don't think I can be comfortable eating something dead especially neglected-of-their-life-&-tortured-&-injected-with-steroids dead. I never was, but my mom always made me eat meat. I can't eat whole chicken I can't eat things that look like distinct animal body parts.
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I am not for animal torture and if I gave up meat, I would make the point of giving up for the love of another living thing.

I don't want to be selfish like that.


Chao!