Hello DEAR

It has been ages since I have written/communicated with the world of cyberspace. I feel rather impatient because I have so many things going on and I feel that this is the BEST time of my life. I have a big "issue" that is the current topic of my life and I really do need some counseling.

Well...to make long stories short, I want to move out. By myself. No one else. No wonderful boyfriend, maybe the dog he adopted.

You see, I am a firm believer that a couple cannot live together until marriage.

I really do feel its time for me to spread my wings and fly onto the horizon.

I think it is a good idea, and the more I think about it, the more I fantasize.

However, people are advising me that it is not a good idea. And I am in a very dreamy world hypnotized with the idea of being my own independent me that I MUST listen to the advice of those that care about me.

I need to do those con and pro lists.

By the way I am just under 6 months before I turn 20.

I love lists so here is my to-do list before I hit that age.

1. swim with sharks.

2.jump of a plane.

3. make a full skirt and wear it!

4. Help my boyfriend with his franchise.

5. Give my friend the bestest surprise ever.

6. Go to confession.

7. Learn german.

8. sponsor a child from a thrid world country.

9.Write to a newspaper about an issue that matters to me.

10. get an "industrial" done at a tattoo shop.

11. post pictures of my rendez vous.

12. Get rid of my honda.

13. take vintage pictures.

14. Webcam it with someone in another country.

15. rollerblade with rocker.