by chance

i promised myself i wouldnt fuck up my computer like i always did.
I still can't understand why i got a virus on both PCs.


I remember now,

My dad took both computers to the shop he goes to and demanded they'd be fixed by that time. He wasnt there at that time, just his brother and other peeps.

Because of so many obstacles on wednesday i couldn't pick up the pcs....so i picked them up the next day,

with my dad.

I demanded the guy that worked there to show me the computers....
and i felt bad too because i made him plug the pc just before i was about to leave.

i learned that from my dad so people who take your money won't screw you over.


and i said w/e and he asked if he wanted the other pc on and i said nah its cool and left...


i asked him if they were viruses....and i got a "duh!" expression... I felt morbidly stupid for bring such obvious question.. and I left.




I never told him how i felt towards him. I glance at people, i dont analyze them from head to toe, so when Angie told me if I knew him I couldn't remember him. But i kinda did. They are those people you look at and say dang hes handsome but he's totally out of my league just bc he worked there. Especialy bc i wasnt thinking in dating for while. so i never hit up on guys that interest me in that sense. But i am so thankful that i listened to angie and went out with jose.


to think i met him by chance..


everything in the universe works together to pull two totally different strangers from two different backgrounds into one inseparable couple. The way the world work fascinates me.
So many outcomes and here I am now, on black friday of 2008, pondering of life and its meaning.


I am truly happy. words aren't enough to explain the emotions going on in my body and soul. science cannot explain that, nor can logic. Its more than that. Its a conspiracy. of whom? idk. But a planned out conspiracy for Angie to be at the right moment in time, for my computers to simultaneously die out, for my paycheck that was supposed to pay for the pc services to be rejected on the day i was going to pay and pick them up.
so many people and events that helped me meet this wonderful guy i now call mi bebe.